The killing time...

I have another 2 weeks to go before my hidup mati presentation. The marks allocated to this presentation adalah sangat banyak. 40% and if my group fail again this time, we only can depend on report pula which carry the same mark – 40%. But the passing mark adalah sangat tinggi pula tu.

Today, I dah start plan my-to-do-list until the presentation day. The burden now is only to me and my partner. The other team member memang tak boleh diharap. Both of us agreed that we need to do our best as much as we can now. Tapi...banyak lagi benda nak kena buat... Nangis!!!

Actually, I don’t know why my other group member turned to be such a bitchy one lately. Amboi mak perkataan. But it is true. Sangat teruk okay. They really piggy back on me and my partner. Never think or try to think how to reduce our burden. No effort or commitment pun. Dahlah lately diaorang sepakat bertiga and made me like a stranger or perempuan jahat saja all the time.

One of them, I don’t know what happened to her. She totally changed. Always try to malukan I dalam semua group meeting and every time she speaks dalam group Whatsapp. Dulu she is so close to me but she changed when I start queried her quality of work. Errr… bukan query… tegur lah kot..but she cannot accept it all. I don’t know the reason behind this. (Ke dia jealous dengan I sebenarnya ni?? Tapi nak jealous apa pun….)

I really hope I can get through all this.

I am a women and honestly I admitted that memang tension if you are dealing with women. 

10 May - Happy Birthday to you

Every year, at this date, I never failed to wish STM a birthday wish. Dulu-dulu kalau wish memanglah macam indah belaka kan..sebab wish tu konon-konon from a good friend of you.. but, after I did a silly and super duper big mistake (to him), 3 years ago ... things changed.

You didn't recognize me anymore as...

...... A friend who never failed to give you,  her shoulder for you to cry on..
...... A friend who sanggup sengkang mata layan your frustration sebab belum dapat kerja lain, and to read your texts patiently when you want to let things go...
...... A friend who time tidur pun boleh terbangun untuk layan you sebab tetiba dapat your Whatsapps
...... A friend who still remember your kindness walaupun she hurt her own feeling
...... A friend who know the true meaning of friendship
...... A friend who never look down of you!!
...... A friend who never failed to give a moral support to you without knowing her action will hurt her in the end
...... A friend who willing to take out her own money (walaupun bukanlah berduit sangat) to ask for Tahfiz's students to pray for a good thing for your time you tengah down sangat...
...... A friend who willing to spend some money (again) to ask an Ustaz to pray for you...
...... A friend who never take any cents from the money that you gave me last time to repay for a kindness which you should not ( few thousands, okay..and I decided to derma it all..and mentioned your name for every donation I made on behalf of you)
...... A friend who never failed to pray kebaikan for you because she know doa yang tidak diketahui oleh tuan punya badan sendiri itu mudah dimakbulkan oleh Allah

Now, I don't think I can be that friend again..to you...

I hurt my own feeling for the past 3 years since we didn't talk to each other..
Pelik kan... I just a friend to you, but I believed Allah is promising me something sebab tu I can wait for these years..

STM.. I hope I can wish the same birthday wished again to you for the next year...

Almost 1/2 year already....

Oh my...sudah almost 6 months I tak menjengah langsung this blog.. Asyik baca blog orang lain and blog sendiri terabai :-(

By the way, for the past 6 months ni, I did something good (really) untuk mengisi masa lapang.. My Mom dulu selalu ajak I teman dia untuk pergi kelas mengaji di masjid. She actually really proud of my achievement in mengaji ni...so, by taking me with her, selain ada teman, I rasa dia macam boleh bangga depan orang that her daughter can really baca Quran in good Tajwid :-)

But, niat my Mom tidak kesampaian..I don't know why I berat hati nak follow dia. Setakat hantar or ambil from the class, I sanggup je walaupun sampai 11pm or sometimes I pernah stay tunggu my Mom for few hours. Tak tahu kenapa boleh jadi macam ni. Pintu hati tak terbuka lagi or something else?

So, my Mom setelah sekian lama..beri kata dua...if I dont want to follow her to Kelas Mengaji, I need to find other class as a replacement... Both my parents will support from A to Z... Nak tak nak...I pun buat keputusan....and my class already started since last Sept.

Will talk about this later.