People changed...

Recently, AH is keep sending video ceramah agama and other Islamic media to me. Agak terkesan jugaklah sebab tetiba kan.. I nak buat jokes kat dia pun macam fikir dua tiga empat puloh kali kot.  Maybe sebab umur dia makin meningkat so makin banyak kesedaran diri...to improve himself to be a good Muslim. 

I admit yang I ni kalau dengar ceramah pun pilih ustaz... some of the vidoe he sent to I didn't know pun Ustaz tu..maybe tahu kot tapi sebab tak pernah dengar maka my judgement is tak best. But, looking forward mesti kena ubah kot. Must listen to all media he sent to me.. A good thing pun kan. 

I don't know lah, I missed him so much. Being a friend to him for almost 8 years (kalau tak silap), boleh tahan ni pun sebab the chemistry is there. Dahlah I ni susah nak rapat dengan orang...so, selama kawan mestilah banyak pasang surutnya..Dia pun dahlah jauh, added with his status yang not allowed me to lebih-lebih but I pun tak nak kot sebab I still respect and appreciate this kind of friendship. But, kadang-kadang my otak ni pun sampai boleh terfikir..."how about if AH ni my husband? Am I happy with him?" ish2..Ish..Ish...

Apa-apapun hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik. What I appreciate him most is he always try to find his time to meet me kalau dia datang sini.. 

AH adalah Darling BB. The rest of the initial will be changed soon kalau ada cerita pasal mereka.

Further study

I've decided to further my study after been resting for 12 years..eh, tak juga... in 2007, I am taking a professional course. So, kira rest for 7 years, sambung belajar, then rest balik then sambung balik. Last year, when my lil Sis nak sambung Master, dia lah yang sibuk-sibuk pilih program untuk I. Mula-mula memang tak ingin pun, but, kuasa Allah.. few days before nak dateline to get the PIN no. from BSN, Allah bukakan hati. Hari Jumaat pula tu. Terus call my Dad, minta tolong dia pi BSN to get the PIN no. 

Nama untuk my master program ni, canggih. And I sambung dekat university yang tak jauh dari rumah, I mean it just took me less than 1/2 to reach the place.. I was actually plan to further my study dekat UPM je, sebab UPM was my university masa I buat degree program, tapi sebab macam jauh and I memang tak nak sambung buat same program masa degree dulu, so the new university is my have-to-with-no-choice lah. Well, this new university ni actually okay je but some of them (my classmates) still carry the old mentality from their previous undergrad university. By the way, luckily most of the lecturer from different university and you know what I mean. 

Memula otak macam nak tepu sebab dah lama tinggal kan..but, Alhamdulillah, managed to get good grade. It is called power of reading and understanding the subject. Now, dah nak masuk 2nd year and I have a lot a lot of things to tell. So many things happened.. Subjects yang pecah kepala.. exam... your classmates, your team members... actually, semua benda okay, but as usual, when you are dealing with people... haaaaa...then you know how it goes... 

People..

People...

People....

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People......

People......

Sometimes, kita-kita ni memang Allah bagi yang seronok-seronok belaka je before dia bagi yang tak berapa nak seronok..and sometimes Allah bagi yang tak berapa dulu sebelum dia bagi yang seronok. I rasa semua orang dah rasa... and we must take notes semua benda ni.

This is my not-so-new journey and I wish I can end it with a good ending. Insya Allah.

Adil? Amanah?

Adil?
Amanah?

I think it is so hard to have  pemimpin yang adil and amanah anymore. Tak payah sibuk dengan isu besar sekarang ni, cuba lihat depan mata sendiri. Adakah pemimpin kita i.e. boss or sesiapa yang mempunyai tanggungjawab terhadap orang bawahan dia boleh adil dan amanah?

When I was a Section Head in my previous company, I had 6-7 staff under my supervision and I admit it is so hard for me untuk berlaku adil terhadap semua. Memang akan timbul sikap favouritism but I am always in favour to my staff yang pandai buat kerja sebab selalu 'kecewa' dengan hasil kerja staff yang suka buat kerja sambil lewa. But still the favouritism is there.

Kat my current company, dah makin banyak perkara-perkara yang tidak menampakkan amanah oleh antara pemimpin-pemimpin di sini. Mereka ini diamanahkan dengan kuasa (of course bukan wang) tetapi selalu salah guna. Mata hati selalu tak boleh tipu. Memang boleh nampak what they did and what  they shouldn't do.

Apa-apapun.... kalau bab-bab adil dan amanah ini, kita boleh ubah. Ubah dari diri sendiri. Adil dan amanah itu bermula dari kita sendiri sebab benda yang kecil selalunya akan memberikan impak kepada benda yang besar.