Luluh

Sudah puas aku menangis lagi
Kau hadirkan mendung awan yang kelam
Namun ku kan tetap bisa bertahan

Secebis kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan ku simpan dalam memori indah
Tapi semuanya telah berakhir

Aku tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh sakitnya hati ini


Jika kau tak mampu memberiku senyum
Usah kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh biarlah hidupku dengan caraku

Secebis kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan ku simpan dalam memori indah
Tapi semuanya telah berakhir

Aku tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh sakitnya hati ini

Jika kau tak mampu memberi ku senyum
Usah kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh biarlah hidupku dengan caraku

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Why I post the above MV and also the lyric?

Something happened today and it hurts me a lot.
Memang tak sangka it ends like this...

Masa my sis and I went to SCM, I met KN's mom kat MPH. She's holding 2 pcs of Al Quran and knowing his mom yang sangat jujur dan terus terang, she informed me that KN's is getting married this March. I memang speechless...memanglah kami tak bercinta apa pun, but he can just stopped me bila aku macam dah meraban merepek niyang rapik sekali sekala kat Whatsapp. Tipu lah kalau aku boleh jatuh / ada hati kat KN selama ni. And I always pretend to deny that feeling. 

I memang sampai tiada emosi langsung, sebab terlampau sakit sangat hati sangat..end up with aku tanya his Mom, KN's future wife orang mana...tu jelah kot... Ntahlah..I know I should not amik serious benda-benda yang libatkan hati dan perasaan ini, tapi I am a human and I have a feeling. 

Kerana merasa aku ni masih seorang kawan yang 'tiada' emosi, I DMed KN via Intagram. I told him I lost his number (Kunun kan..padahal after his Mom told me the news, I terus delete his number semua). I congratulated him and wish him happy.

KN? Of courselah dia reply. Say thanks to me sebab I doakan dia.

Hurt? 
Yes

Feeling being cheated?
I don't know. Tapi rasa macam KN ni perangai dia macam agak menyedihkan..Sebab tu lah I hate being with quiet type of person. They are slowing eating your feeling. Better berkawan dengan orang mulut puaka terus. At least they always being honest. Kena tahan telinga je...

Shame?
Yes, for surelah. Kekadang sebab hati perasaan ini, manusia mudah lupa diri. Alpa!!
Nasib baik tak pernah cakap I love you kat dia..


Anyway, KN's big day is coming soon. Semoga bahagia till Jannah.. If the girl  tetiba buat u-turn, I just want KN tahu yang I'm still here. Waiting for him... Hahahaha... 

Macam bitch pulak aku ni!!! 

Puaka united!!! 

Pucca # 28

I rasa I will write yang pendek-pendek je dahulu.  The longer want kenalah tunggu.  Macamlah aku ramai reader sangat kan..

Now I am having difficulty when dealing witj GK.  She really put me in trouble.  I tak tahu lah nak cakap macam mana.  Last time when I had a conversation with my #ExBoss,  I clearly told him like this.. "Tak tahu apa masalah dia boss.  Macamlah saya pernah kenyit mata dengan laki dia"

Yes,  I dont know what is your problem, woman!!  Can you just be a bit tolerance?  If you still acting like this,  people will start pray a bad things for you.

Pucca # 27

I think I terribly miss my #ExBoss..
Not a good start with him,  but sebab ended as a friend with him,  I start missing him already.

I really hope they can find a replacement for him as soon as possible.  So that I can concentrate to a new person...right?

Tulah susah bila mula rapat dengan orang ni.. Like My Mom cakap,  hati perut semua ku bagi..

Well,  I really hope in one fine day,  we will cross path again.  To be honest,  I never fail to pray for this.  Insya Allah.. If it is a good thing for me,  I believed Allah will grant this wish.