Banyak benda happened to me
sepanjang tahun 2013. Manis, pahit, kelat dan sebagainya..semua cukup and
complete. In summary, I cried a lot than I laugh or smile
Diri sendiri – I tak jaga
my health and my skin sangat. My weight macam yo-yo. Hahahahah… Mana taknya, discipline for routine exercise /
workout masih on and off. The ‘M’ besar sangat. Pasal my skin pulak, actually
masih ditahap okay, tiadalah selicin bak telur dikupas and tiadalah pula umpama
permukaan bulan. Cuma I need to find suitable supplement kot. Dah nak
hujung-hujung tahun baru dapat supplement yang sesuai. Kerana I ni bukan kaki
cerewet, so I cuma nak my skin sihat (tidak kusam) and I believed the glowing
procedure must come from inside (ada ke??)
Through the year, my career
naik turun jugaklah… it was not about my luck kat tempat kerja ni, tapi more to
my relationship with co-workers here. Oh My… sangat menyeksa jiwa batin kerja
di sini… and all this happened akan balik ke root cause – Diva Duck. I memang
pelik apa masalah sebenar dia ni.. Always pretend to be innocent and victim all
the time (Macamlah aku ni rampas laki dia). To be honest, sometimes I memang
terniat nak doakan something really bad happened to her. Biar dia tak perlu
datang kerja for long time and hope that bad incident sedarkan dia. But,
benda-benda tak baik ni just terlintas dalam hati jelah. Dosa pun kan...
Oh ya, I also still
continue tak bercakap with The Other Ducks. I cannot simply forgive them (and
also the rest yang terbabit) walaupun dulu I ‘sibuk’ perjuangkan slogan “Forgive
and Forget”. I know some of the Duck members sudahpun mendapat balasan cash karma
but things don’t changed selagi Diva Duck tidak membuat any confession. But, I’m
okay pun tak bercakap with The Ducks members. I masih okay with other colleague
cuma I lebih berhati-hati jelah bila borak or discuss something with them. Only
with Abewe and Putih I can throw my frustration about works.
My friendship with STM, I pun
tak tahu nak cakap apa. Samada I yang terlebih ego or dia yang melampau
melangit egonya. Things between us dah tak sama macam dulu lagi sebab one
stupid incident yang he took it very serious. Benda remeh actually and he don’t
have the right to scold me like hell. I sent raya wish pun dia tak balas so I
pun malas nak fikir sangat. Biarkan masa berlalu and I hope hati dia sejuk juga
one day. Sometimes I terfikir jugak, why until now, I never miss to mention his
name in my doa (prayer). I try not to do it once, but I will feel guilty yang
amat. I don’t know why tapi I rasa, maybe it’s back to my niat bila I decide to
be his friend dulu. Niat I yang semata-mata kerana Allah and sebab tulah I
yakin Allah telah tetapkan hati I to terus meminta yang baik untuk STM dariNya… and
I never regret doing this.
Darling BB, as usual he
will always be my sweet darling. Walaupun dia jauh beratus-ratus kilometer from me,
but he is still one of the best person to make me calm bila I ada masalah. I can
feel that both of us memang ada a very good chemistry dari dulu sebab itulah we
can stay be friend (teman tapi mesra) for more than 6 years. Mueheheh… I
respect his life, and he respects mine. I appreciate him more bila setiap kali dia
datang sini, dia akan try to find time to meet me dari his other friend (Bangga
tau!!). Sekejap pun jadilah for him to have a chat with me and for me pulak, that
moment memang priceless (I rasa you all pun tahu how it feel when you spend
time with you BFF, right?)
Si Cantik yang sentiasa be
by my side…. I was so lucky having her in my life.
And do you still remember
Nick? I pernah cerita about him dulu. Pening kepala I dengan dia ni. Sometimes, his feeling is unpredictable. We are good friend je actually (he was my ex
colleague last time) but, at the same time, he insists (indirectly) me to be ‘more
close’ to him. By the way, I noticed Nick ni memang still naïve in some
adult/mature thinking. I bagi hint juga to him yang dia kena kenal I betul-betul
kalau nak I be with him forever. Anyway, I tak nak he changed to something bad bila
betul-betul I dengan dia nanti, main reason sebab his unpredictable feeling
tulah to which I kadang-kaang rasa mamat ni psiko pun ada. Mana tahu he is a ‘big’
monster actually and I cannot imagine share my life with this kind of
person. I ni dahlah suka imagine di luar jangkauan.
Other than that… I still have few good news yang datang
towards the end of year 2013. Like my Mum suddenly allowed my Lil Sis and I
travel jauh dan lebih jauh, my boss at last give me a promotion (I supposed to
get a promotion last year but kena KIV sebab Diva Duck juga) and last but not
least and bagi I penutup peristiwa yang paling best untuk tahun ini bila I
heard Pak Bogus is counting days to leave!!
Goodbye 2013 and Welcome darling
2014!!
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