Goodbye 2013

Banyak benda happened to me sepanjang tahun 2013. Manis, pahit, kelat dan sebagainya..semua cukup and complete. In summary, I cried a lot than I laugh or smile

Diri sendiri – I tak jaga my health and my skin sangat. My weight macam yo-yo. Hahahahah…  Mana taknya, discipline for routine exercise / workout masih on and off. The ‘M’ besar sangat. Pasal my skin pulak, actually masih ditahap okay, tiadalah selicin bak telur dikupas and tiadalah pula umpama permukaan bulan. Cuma I need to find suitable supplement kot. Dah nak hujung-hujung tahun baru dapat supplement yang sesuai. Kerana I ni bukan kaki cerewet, so I cuma nak my skin sihat (tidak kusam) and I believed the glowing procedure must come from inside (ada ke??)

Through the year, my career naik turun jugaklah… it was not about my luck kat tempat kerja ni, tapi more to my relationship with co-workers here. Oh My… sangat menyeksa jiwa batin kerja di sini… and all this happened akan balik ke root cause – Diva Duck. I memang pelik apa masalah sebenar dia ni.. Always pretend to be innocent and victim all the time (Macamlah aku ni rampas laki dia). To be honest, sometimes I memang terniat nak doakan something really bad happened to her. Biar dia tak perlu datang kerja for long time and hope that bad incident sedarkan dia. But, benda-benda tak baik ni just terlintas dalam hati jelah. Dosa pun kan...

Oh ya, I also still continue tak bercakap with The Other Ducks. I cannot simply forgive them (and also the rest yang terbabit) walaupun dulu I ‘sibuk’ perjuangkan slogan “Forgive and Forget”. I know some of the Duck members sudahpun mendapat balasan cash karma but things don’t changed selagi Diva Duck tidak membuat any confession. But, I’m okay pun tak bercakap with The Ducks members. I masih okay with other colleague cuma I lebih berhati-hati jelah bila borak or discuss something with them. Only with Abewe and Putih I can throw my frustration about works.

My friendship with STM, I pun tak tahu nak cakap apa. Samada I yang terlebih ego or dia yang melampau melangit egonya. Things between us dah tak sama macam dulu lagi sebab one stupid incident yang he took it very serious. Benda remeh actually and he don’t have the right to scold me like hell. I sent raya wish pun dia tak balas so I pun malas nak fikir sangat. Biarkan masa berlalu and I hope hati dia sejuk juga one day. Sometimes I terfikir jugak, why until now, I never miss to mention his name in my doa (prayer). I try not to do it once, but I will feel guilty yang amat. I don’t know why tapi I rasa, maybe it’s back to my niat bila I decide to be his friend dulu. Niat I yang semata-mata kerana Allah and sebab tulah I yakin Allah telah tetapkan hati I to terus meminta yang baik untuk STM dariNya… and I never regret doing this.

Darling BB, as usual he will always be my sweet darling. Walaupun dia jauh beratus-ratus kilometer from me, but he is still one of the best person to make me calm bila I ada masalah. I can feel that both of us memang ada a very good chemistry dari dulu sebab itulah we can stay be friend (teman tapi mesra) for more than 6 years. Mueheheh… I respect his life, and he respects mine. I appreciate him more bila setiap kali dia datang sini, dia akan try to find time to meet me dari his other friend (Bangga tau!!). Sekejap pun jadilah for him to have a chat with me and for me pulak, that moment memang priceless (I rasa you all pun tahu how it feel when you spend time with you BFF, right?)

Si Cantik yang sentiasa be by my side…. I was so lucky having her in my life.

And do you still remember Nick? I pernah cerita about him dulu. Pening kepala I dengan dia ni. Sometimes, his feeling is unpredictable. We are good friend je actually (he was my ex colleague last time) but, at the same time, he insists (indirectly) me to be ‘more close’ to him. By the way, I noticed Nick ni memang still naïve in some adult/mature thinking. I bagi hint juga to him yang dia kena kenal I betul-betul kalau nak I be with him forever. Anyway, I tak nak he changed to something bad bila betul-betul I dengan dia nanti, main reason sebab his unpredictable feeling tulah to which I kadang-kaang rasa mamat ni psiko pun ada. Mana tahu he is a ‘big’ monster actually and I cannot imagine share my life with this kind of person. I ni dahlah suka imagine di luar jangkauan.

Other than that…  I still have few good news yang datang towards the end of year 2013. Like my Mum suddenly allowed my Lil Sis and I travel jauh dan lebih jauh, my boss at last give me a promotion (I supposed to get a promotion last year but kena KIV sebab Diva Duck juga) and last but not least and bagi I penutup peristiwa yang paling best untuk tahun ini bila I heard Pak Bogus is counting days to leave!!

Goodbye 2013 and Welcome darling 2014!!