A Slanderer... A Drama Queen

For the past few days, I am facing an issue again with a slanderer. This time, basicnya masih sama. The slanderer was a person that I 'believed' I am close enough.

The same person that I told about in my last post. I don't know what is on her head until she can come to this idea.. this plan..

Why she becomes like that? Become a jealous person? Become such a person who is holding a huge grudge against me?

Is it all started from the 2nd presentation that lead to the failure of our group. She cannot accept the mistake which she is the part of the mistake = failure. Let me put her name as Ms.Brain. I admitted that she has contributed some to our group but not to my expectation. Mula-mula my partner always on her side (not 100%, but still some bigger percentage there), but to the ends, thank God my partner started to realize who she was.

She created so many dramas in our group (I called her Drama Queen), pretend to be the protector to the other members and the most I hate was she portrayed herself as a religious person, more than us.

During the last presentation, our group failed again...still because of her and the other team members. Can you imagine, how we want to survive if the burden only share by 2 members, which is my partner and I, rather than it is shared equally to other three? My partner and I have sacrificed a lot when we decided to take only 2 subjects for the semester instead of 4 like the others. We made the decision when we feel that the other 3, including Ms Brain can't give the full commitment and no extra effort to the groups after the 1st presentation.

Day by day, my partner and I become the victims to our own team members. They really take us for granted. We suffered a lot. A lot... Since my partner is a married man, you can guess what type of problem he had with his wife pulak.

Oh ya, back to the presentation... The accessor/ panel decided to give different marks to 5 of us. My partner and I got the same marks, but the other 3 much lower than us, which I think they should get much much lower than that.. huh!!!

And...then the big problem came. Ms, Brain did not satisfied and ask my partner (a team leader) to justify herself and the other 3 that they should not get that marks. They believed they should get higher marks, equal like what my partner and I dapat. .... banyak cantik kan... My partner tak layan, then she started the defamation part. She put all the blame on me..looks like I am the one who made a decision for the group walaupun all the while it was a collective decision. So the group failure is because of me. I read what she texted to my partner. I read it all and I cried (dalam hati..of courselah malu kalau betul-betul sebab my partner is sat in front of me) And memang tak sangka lah Ms. Brain berani sampai macam tu sekali.

My partner, memula malas nak masuk campur ..dah tried to ignore dia but when she started the defamation, keep bitching about me, he cannot accept it, because that is too much. I tau my partner tak sebelah sesiapa because he always said he was in the middle of everybody, but this time, memang he can't take it dah...

I tau Ms, Brain can't accept that I am heading her. I am not perfect but, the performance wise, memang she can't beat me walau pusing ikut mana pun. She knew the truth behind all this but, it is hard for her to accept it.

I hate to face this issue anymore, because it hurt me so much. So yesterday, I sent one text to her asking her to stop doing all the unnecessary things because nobody get the benefit from what she done before. The result = she removed me from her FB list and delete my no.

And...and...and...
Suddenly she sent me text asking for my forgiveness for what she had done to me so far. Hmmm... ni pun sbb nak final exam...Too bad...you are too late... I tak layan pun her text tu

Well, Ms Brain...
My prinsip senang je... I tak pernah kacau hidup you and too bad when you started to defame me. You think you can easily lepas pasal ni? I know I am not a good person, but when you did that, it is too much. You takut dengan bayang-bayang sendiri.

I leave it to Allah... I am not the right person to judge or punish you..

I will never easily forget a slanderer in my life. It is too late for you, Ms Brain.!!!

The killing time...

I have another 2 weeks to go before my hidup mati presentation. The marks allocated to this presentation adalah sangat banyak. 40% and if my group fail again this time, we only can depend on report pula which carry the same mark – 40%. But the passing mark adalah sangat tinggi pula tu.

Today, I dah start plan my-to-do-list until the presentation day. The burden now is only to me and my partner. The other team member memang tak boleh diharap. Both of us agreed that we need to do our best as much as we can now. Tapi...banyak lagi benda nak kena buat... Nangis!!!

Actually, I don’t know why my other group member turned to be such a bitchy one lately. Amboi mak perkataan. But it is true. Sangat teruk okay. They really piggy back on me and my partner. Never think or try to think how to reduce our burden. No effort or commitment pun. Dahlah lately diaorang sepakat bertiga and made me like a stranger or perempuan jahat saja all the time.

One of them, I don’t know what happened to her. She totally changed. Always try to malukan I dalam semua group meeting and every time she speaks dalam group Whatsapp. Dulu she is so close to me but she changed when I start queried her quality of work. Errr… bukan query… tegur lah kot..but she cannot accept it all. I don’t know the reason behind this. (Ke dia jealous dengan I sebenarnya ni?? Tapi nak jealous apa pun….)

I really hope I can get through all this.

I am a women and honestly I admitted that memang tension if you are dealing with women.