Dubsmash

Sana sini orang buat dubmash, and asalkan boleh semua nak buat. But these 2 Instagram accounts memang hilarious. Compared to others, I still rasa yang dua ni memang buat tali perut pun terburai. Do follow them if you have an IG's account.

https://instagram.com/faizdickievp/

https://instagram.com/ucopppp/

Ramadhan 2015

Ramadhan kali ini nampak macam I tak berapa menghayati. Rasa macam bersalah dan ketinggalan betul dalam mencari pahala sebanyak mungkin. Setiap tahun mesti berazam nak mengimarahkan Ramadhan dengan sebaik mungkin i.e. baca Quran sebanyak yang boleh and also memenuhkan malam dengan Solat Tarawikh and Qiyamullail..tapi this year, failed juga. First 2 weeks, sibuk dengan exam, presentation and submission for group project. Huru-hara hidup...tapi itu bukan excuse kan?  

By the way, masih dapat buat tarawikh walaupun 3 malam saja and managed to complete 2 surah Al-Quran. Bersyukur sangat-sangat, Allah masih berikan peluang to me untuk mencari pahala. Moga my ibadah mulai dari hari ini akan lebih baik dari sebelum ini.

On the other notes, the sister (ex-gf Mr.MM tu) dah accept my invitation kat Linkedin... Oh, gembira sungguh and I rasa a big relief. I told my Mom about it and she's happy too.. Yelah, mana taknya, dia pun tahu yang I banyak sangat bertolak ansur dengan Mr.MM. All the while, I terpaksa menahan perasaan sebab nak jaga hati Mr.MM - persahabatan yang gila. My Mom masa I cerita semalam pun been asking me about Mr. MM, did he still contact me or what. The answer of courselah "No" sejak dia marah I pasal his ex tu. Well, this year I don't plan to send him a raya wish. I know he will be alone macam tahun-tahun sebelum ini, but who cares. 

Ye.. he changed .. and I don't think he still 'keeps' me or pernah ingat yang I dulu pernah jadi kawan dia, time susah dan senang. Tak pelah.. maybe my contribution to his life hanya sebesar zarah je kot. But, apa-apa pun, if one day ditakdirkan Allah he needs me, I still can accept him dengan hati yang terbuka. Hidup ni pun kan macam roda. 

Salam Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin.

(Mr. MM is Si Tai Merah)

Need to move on

I have deleted all whatsapp screen shots yang gigih aku buat since day 1. Pastu hari ni, tetiba macam satu benda hempuk atas kepala yang asked me to MOVE ON. Sampai bila kan nak dikenang orang yang tak nak mengenang kita. Walaupun dah berbuih mulut si Cantik suruh aku lupakan this type of kawan tak guna, but I still have a faith on him. 

Ye, this is all about Si Tai Merah. Yang masih I simpan, his whatsapp / text messaging still dalam my phone, emails serta Gtalk / Hangout still there. Takpelah, bukan I rajin nak baca balik pun. 

After 3 years, I start losing my faith on him. Dia pun macam dah tak nak ada apa-apa kaitan pun dengan I dan kawan-kawan lama dia disini. Hemmm...people changed. 

So, I will delete the special entry yang I pernah buat 2 years back during his birthday. Being a person whom very good in number, I know I will not easily forget his birth date, but at least I will start forget him.

Next action, to add back his ex gf dalam my Linkedin list. (Did you know pasal ni lah yang meretakkan seribu or berjuta keping our friendship...so pas ni..lantak pi lah...) I know he will hates me more, but all the while my actions semua kena considered his feelings. Did he really considered mine? Tak pernah kot.

Well, his ex-gf is such a nice lady and I looooooooove to talk to her. Selalu dapat borak pun kat Linkedin message je. Tu pun after I had to remove her from my list selepas mamat tu bising..bising yang terus putus kawan... 

People changed...

Recently, AH is keep sending video ceramah agama and other Islamic media to me. Agak terkesan jugaklah sebab tetiba kan.. I nak buat jokes kat dia pun macam fikir dua tiga empat puloh kali kot.  Maybe sebab umur dia makin meningkat so makin banyak kesedaran diri...to improve himself to be a good Muslim. 

I admit yang I ni kalau dengar ceramah pun pilih ustaz... some of the vidoe he sent to I didn't know pun Ustaz tu..maybe tahu kot tapi sebab tak pernah dengar maka my judgement is tak best. But, looking forward mesti kena ubah kot. Must listen to all media he sent to me.. A good thing pun kan. 

I don't know lah, I missed him so much. Being a friend to him for almost 8 years (kalau tak silap), boleh tahan ni pun sebab the chemistry is there. Dahlah I ni susah nak rapat dengan orang...so, selama kawan mestilah banyak pasang surutnya..Dia pun dahlah jauh, added with his status yang not allowed me to lebih-lebih but I pun tak nak kot sebab I still respect and appreciate this kind of friendship. But, kadang-kadang my otak ni pun sampai boleh terfikir..."how about if AH ni my husband? Am I happy with him?" ish2..Ish..Ish...

Apa-apapun hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik. What I appreciate him most is he always try to find his time to meet me kalau dia datang sini.. 

AH adalah Darling BB. The rest of the initial will be changed soon kalau ada cerita pasal mereka.

Further study

I've decided to further my study after been resting for 12 years..eh, tak juga... in 2007, I am taking a professional course. So, kira rest for 7 years, sambung belajar, then rest balik then sambung balik. Last year, when my lil Sis nak sambung Master, dia lah yang sibuk-sibuk pilih program untuk I. Mula-mula memang tak ingin pun, but, kuasa Allah.. few days before nak dateline to get the PIN no. from BSN, Allah bukakan hati. Hari Jumaat pula tu. Terus call my Dad, minta tolong dia pi BSN to get the PIN no. 

Nama untuk my master program ni, canggih. And I sambung dekat university yang tak jauh dari rumah, I mean it just took me less than 1/2 to reach the place.. I was actually plan to further my study dekat UPM je, sebab UPM was my university masa I buat degree program, tapi sebab macam jauh and I memang tak nak sambung buat same program masa degree dulu, so the new university is my have-to-with-no-choice lah. Well, this new university ni actually okay je but some of them (my classmates) still carry the old mentality from their previous undergrad university. By the way, luckily most of the lecturer from different university and you know what I mean. 

Memula otak macam nak tepu sebab dah lama tinggal kan..but, Alhamdulillah, managed to get good grade. It is called power of reading and understanding the subject. Now, dah nak masuk 2nd year and I have a lot a lot of things to tell. So many things happened.. Subjects yang pecah kepala.. exam... your classmates, your team members... actually, semua benda okay, but as usual, when you are dealing with people... haaaaa...then you know how it goes... 

People..

People...

People....

People.....

People......

People......

Sometimes, kita-kita ni memang Allah bagi yang seronok-seronok belaka je before dia bagi yang tak berapa nak seronok..and sometimes Allah bagi yang tak berapa dulu sebelum dia bagi yang seronok. I rasa semua orang dah rasa... and we must take notes semua benda ni.

This is my not-so-new journey and I wish I can end it with a good ending. Insya Allah.

Adil? Amanah?

Adil?
Amanah?

I think it is so hard to have  pemimpin yang adil and amanah anymore. Tak payah sibuk dengan isu besar sekarang ni, cuba lihat depan mata sendiri. Adakah pemimpin kita i.e. boss or sesiapa yang mempunyai tanggungjawab terhadap orang bawahan dia boleh adil dan amanah?

When I was a Section Head in my previous company, I had 6-7 staff under my supervision and I admit it is so hard for me untuk berlaku adil terhadap semua. Memang akan timbul sikap favouritism but I am always in favour to my staff yang pandai buat kerja sebab selalu 'kecewa' dengan hasil kerja staff yang suka buat kerja sambil lewa. But still the favouritism is there.

Kat my current company, dah makin banyak perkara-perkara yang tidak menampakkan amanah oleh antara pemimpin-pemimpin di sini. Mereka ini diamanahkan dengan kuasa (of course bukan wang) tetapi selalu salah guna. Mata hati selalu tak boleh tipu. Memang boleh nampak what they did and what  they shouldn't do.

Apa-apapun.... kalau bab-bab adil dan amanah ini, kita boleh ubah. Ubah dari diri sendiri. Adil dan amanah itu bermula dari kita sendiri sebab benda yang kecil selalunya akan memberikan impak kepada benda yang besar.