Pucca # 28

I rasa I will write yang pendek-pendek je dahulu.  The longer want kenalah tunggu.  Macamlah aku ramai reader sangat kan..

Now I am having difficulty when dealing witj GK.  She really put me in trouble.  I tak tahu lah nak cakap macam mana.  Last time when I had a conversation with my #ExBoss,  I clearly told him like this.. "Tak tahu apa masalah dia boss.  Macamlah saya pernah kenyit mata dengan laki dia"

Yes,  I dont know what is your problem, woman!!  Can you just be a bit tolerance?  If you still acting like this,  people will start pray a bad things for you.

Pucca # 27

I think I terribly miss my #ExBoss..
Not a good start with him,  but sebab ended as a friend with him,  I start missing him already.

I really hope they can find a replacement for him as soon as possible.  So that I can concentrate to a new person...right?

Tulah susah bila mula rapat dengan orang ni.. Like My Mom cakap,  hati perut semua ku bagi..

Well,  I really hope in one fine day,  we will cross path again.  To be honest,  I never fail to pray for this.  Insya Allah.. If it is a good thing for me,  I believed Allah will grant this wish.

Raya 2016 and 2017

 

                     

My family tak balik kampung for Raya last time... dah banyak tahun dah..

Throwback kejap...untuk tahun 2016, I bawak my family pergi Cyberview. 7 of us. I've been there once for company A retreat in 2010. Memang happening because I kongsi 1 bilik dengan Si Cantik and my ex beloved friend, HO. A lot of good moments to remember time staff retreat kat sini. This time, MM pun masih ada with us. 

Then, kalau tak silap, next yearnya (2011), I hadiahkan 1 night stay kat sini jugak to my parents for their anniversary yang ke 39. My Mom bila balik tak habis-habis puji shower kat bilik best.. 

And for Raya 2017, I tak bawa my family pergi mana-mana. Just stay kat rumah je. Well, this time, I saw my parents extra happiness because all of us are here. My brother with his wife, my sister, the nephew..semua ada. Oh ya, 1 person is missing, my brother in law yang mana I rasa kalau dia ada the suasana Raya akan jadi macam tak berapa happy after what he did / said to my parents last time.

So, marilah berdoa agar next year raya (2018) ada pertambahan family member... hahahahah

Happened to know

As usual, walaupun hati ini half half je samada nak atau tidak untul wish / jawab wish Selamat Hari Raya to / from KN, tapi in the end, mestilah aku yang gatal jugak nak buat. This year, I sent a Raya wish again to him. Tapi takdelah berjela-jela macam last year. Simple sahaja... General wish.. sebabnya kalau meleret-leret macam tahun lepas, in the end I will get sick sebab dia akan bagi false hope.

And for this year, time whatsapp dengan KN (1 day after Raya), baru lah I got to know that he already resigned from his company yang Kulim nun. When I told my Mom, mak kata, nasib baiklah I tak joined the subsid.co of KN's office hari tu. KN said the company has financial problem and so many lah which I don't ask for details.

Bila tahu dia dah resign, as usual, semangat belas kasihan I pun kembali menyeru. He resigned early May,and dia kata nak dok rehat-rehat lagi sambil survey cari kerja lain. Ayat 'rehat-rehat' tulah make me a bit pissed off. But, I don't blame him lah sebab markert sekarang pun not good and quite competitive especially for him yang dari background automotive enginering. Tapi maybe duit dia dah banyak kot... Hahahaha... Well, he needs to cepat-cepat cari lah kan kerja juga because I tau dia ada komitmen besar yang dia kena hadap. 

While I consoled him sebagai kawan yang sangat mengambil berat... I pun tak expect he will say this..

Ntahlah, dalam I geram yang kadang-kadang tahap melampau, mesti lah ada a bit sympathy to him. I think I always be like this to everyone walaupaun I know they treated me like a shit sometimes.

Hopefully he will find his new job soon. 

Memang annoying or he just a jerk?

I want to talk about KN..

I wrote to him somewhere early Jan 2016

I sent this email to KN, dengan harapan yang I boleh tolong dia (sikit or banyak) regarding his custodian on his children. I don't know why I concerned (curious maybe) about him and also his kids. It is nothing to do with me actually, but sebab the situation is similar with what had happened to my family. We faced it long time ago and walaupun the good things is side to us, the pain is still there. So, can you imagine, everytime kalau I bawak my Mom pergi rumah dia (never had a chance to bump into him so far), his mother will talk about her grandchildren who always kena "buli" by the step and bla..bla..bla... Asyik dok sogok cerita yang sama (looks like no end eh..) maka jadilah kesian sangat sampai my Mom and I promised to her that we will try to help in our own way.

And sebab cerita keluh kesah hanya melalui mak KN je, jadi aku ni kan selalunya extra advance so, I email to him (email atas ni lah). I got his email address dulu sebab nak send resume masa tengah tension kerja kat Company B. Ayat direct kot kat atas tu, pun sudahnya no single reply pun from him. At least, say "Thanks" la brother sebab ada orang care pasal you and your family problem tu...

Then, masa raya, beria lah I send whatsapp la bagai kan... ooo..he replied. And I pun yang terlebih rajin ni kemain invite him datang rumah lah bagai...He said okay...dah lah time tu I got class on weekend (Saturday and Sunday) so, everytime nak pergi kelas, I akan tinggalkan duit raya for his kids and siap pesan lagi dengan my Lil Sis untuk bagi, in case kalau time dia and family dia datang, I takde... But, sampai habis raya, batang hidung pun tak nampak..

Pastu apa lagi...

Oh ya... kes masa his birthday tu lah.. u can read it here.. Kemain kan..

Then, I sent whatsapp jugak asking about his kids UPSR's result.... he replied..

And early of this year, as usual I will asked about his children..sekolah kat mana and so on... he replied..  tapi tak silap, lepas ni kot, I made a decision to stop contact him. Uish, dan dan tu terus delete his contact details and also whatsapp history. And I also unfollow his IG..FB still friend but unfollow je. Kemain kan sampai macam tu sekali..

Kemudian, last 2 weeks kot, I saja je (memang gatal kot aku ni, tak pernah putus asa) sent hi message again to him. Actually, itu intro je sebab I nak tanya about car spare parts which benda ni memang his industry. Tak balas okay sampailah 2-3 days kot. Then, aku hangin jugaklah. Benda ni quite urgent and I really want to get few feedback before I can proceed with whatever option I have in hand masa tu. So, nak tak nak, I send message to him thru IG. Eh, reply plak tapi kat whatsapp. Manalah aku tak geram.. Pong pang pong pang, pastu dia diam  balik..Sakit hati jadinya...so, kerana saya ini jenis tak suka cerita habis 1/2 way, so after my car issue settled by myself, I send a notes to him lah, thank him on his effort nak tolong tanya kawan dia. Aku penat lah type panjang-panjang, haram dia nak reply. Then, kegeraman adalah memuncak maka I send a bit direct message (slap message) to him kat IG. I know he read it. (Tapi aku dah banyak kali slap dia thru message, maybe he still didn't get it??)

My bad sebab all the above, I tak simpan any screenschot pun..takpelah, biar benda tu luput di ingatan. Kalau save, tepek kat sini, lagi aku sakit hati..

Tak faham sungguh mamat ni... adakah dia seorang yang annoying and he just being a jerk? Setahu I lah, dia ni orang yang pendiam and banyak tahan sabar kot. Masa I tau pasal dia dulu with his ex pun, dari gaya jalan cerita from his Mom, dia ni banyak diam je.. But, why lah he did this to me? 

If he don't like all this, he should have the balls okay to say it direct to my face. I am okay saja pun, maybe butthurt lah kejap. Ni memang main tarik tali betul. Tapikan, takut pulak dia kata I minah physco pulak ke... tapi mana ada physco pun because I never intend to harass him..ke dia rasa I nak tackle dia kot? Or maybe he afraid because of his dark experience with the ex? Or sebenarnya dia dah ada gf takut gf dia pijak kepala dia?

Ntahlah, for me, I take it easy. Kalau ada, adalah...kalau takde, takde lah

Takpe, cool down je lah dulu for the time being.

Oh ya, people will kata aku la ni gila sebab dok chase him...but I have my own reason lah..it is about the feeling..something which is hard to explain... nanti kalau ada script yang sesuai, I will write here.. ceh!! Macam lah orang nak baca pun...Kihkihkih!!!

A sign to me

This picture is taken on 18 September 2016 and put in draft box sampai lupa terus. 

First day class of Islamic Accounting (Elective subject). My lecturer asked all student to write down each ayat dalam surah Al Fatihah and maknanya sekali samada in Bahasa Malsysia or English. Actually, it started when she said that there will be a pop quiz for us. Aku plak macam "Alamak, dah lah sepatah haram benda pun tak tahu pasal subject ni..tak sempat nak check dengan student yang pernah ambil subject ni semester lepas pulak". Well, I hate it kalau dapat markah teruk plak in the end of the day.

Masa semua orang tertunggu-tunggu soalan apa yang dia tanya..dia start with simple question..

Dr Z: How many times you recite Al Fatihah per day?

Me: Eh..kacang je ni..start kira berapa rakaat sembahyang kita buat per day...macam tulah minimum Al Fatihah kita baca... tak termasuk kalau buat solat sunat..saja-saja baca Fatihah etc.. Okay.. 7 times

Dr Z: Okay, now you got the answer. Now I want you to translate the meaning of Surah Al Fatihah

Me: Gulp!!!

Well, I saw some of the student looking the meaning from their phones... I pulak, after wrote the complete ayat but, stuck bila nak insert the translation. Oh my..rasa macam hina sungguh, rendah diri and kalau ada laut, nak terus terjun kot... I was so proud being a sekolah agama student dulu, still maintain as one of the top scorer masa kat sekolah, easy peasy when write anything in jawi and also any sentence from al Quran but when come to this simple things, I totally failed...A miserably a failure person... 

Rasa macam jadi sekecil-kecil manusia dalam kelas tu. I saw some of them (ke most) can write it in full. Aku, dua baris tu jelah.. Memang perkara yang memalukan..I feel like somebody is giving me a big slap on that day..

Yes, banyak benda yang aku perlu berubah. Banyak sangat... !!!

Harap menjadi surprisenya

I drafted this on 21 Sept 2016.

One day after KN's birthday.... Lama betul plan ni..samada to continue or not... dalam masa tu, suddenly I ternampak my ex-colleague ada buat so called surpise birthday delivery ini. So far I tengok cantik pulak decoration yang dia buat tu...

So, ding dong ding dong..last-last confirm jugak I booked this services.. details dia macam atas tulah...1 whole cake (Secret Recipe) + 3 white roses + 1 birthday card.. I choose 3 white roses tu, kunun-kunun dengan harapan biarlah KN's interpret sendiri. Chewah..kemain menggunung harapan ni...Tak silap all cost me RM150.00 , which I rasalah macam okaylah price tu..kek SR pun dah berapa kan...

Pastu, nak dijadikan cerita, after my friend confirmed the delivery (KN's mom yang received), day after day, tak de pulak ucapan thanks to me. I tak tahulah kalau ada ramai orang pun send cake+flowers to his house..mana tahu kan...orang glamer...

Aku bab-bab hadiah minta orang sampaikan ni, memang ada nightmare sikit...dulu pun ada kes, passing hadiah kat member suruh passed to another member on her wedding day, sampai sudah she didn't say thanks to me. So, agak skeptical samada benda tu sampai ke tidak sebenarnya .. Dahlah mahal (walaupun periuk saja) but, it cost me a lot lah dengan gaji yang tak seberapa time tu.. But this time, I have no choice to whatsapp KN on this, walaupun tak nak sebenarnya... 

See, almost a week kot... hermmm..... But...but...macam tak best kan... you should say thanks lah brother...say it earlier not when people is start wondering what happened to the package... 

Puppy

Her name is Puppy.

This picture is taken on 13 Sept 2016.

And I supposed to write about her on the same day/month.

But, until I move to Company C, 1 month ago, I never saw her again. 

Even though she is not close to me, I mean she only loves staff yang bagi dia makan like BMB, NW and one ofour security staff, tapi I suka dia sebab dia pantang nampak kereta yang dia kenal, she will happily chase it.. 

Maybe dia dah tak datang kat our office sebab dah ada boyfriend kot..

Or maybe she has dead.. Almaklumlah, my office area ni banyak kenderaan besar , laju pulak tu...or maybe she has been caught by the Facilities people who always aiming stray dogs ni...

Anyway, if you are still alive, Puppy..hope somebody has taken care a good care of you...giving you foods and tempat untuk you tidur walaupun sekejap.

P/s: BMB kalau nampak Puppy serentak dengan I and I pulak macam kelam kelibut nak elak dia dari terkena I, BMB will said this to Puppy "Don't disturb Kakak..let her go, Puppy".

Kesian aku ada beradik angkatkan anjing...... 

Toilet

Draft yang dah semakin bersawang....

Oh ya...ladies toilet kat office B, memang  macam hotel..not so into 5 star hotel but it is more to 3 star hotel yang clean and cantik.. With tiles yang cantik and siap ada wall with air purifying ..dia macam board je dia tampal kat dinding..I am not sure whether it works or not but sejak I dok situ almost 8 years, rasanya macam tak delah serap bau sangat pun..sama je...even pokok pun mati je kalau letak situ..Hahaha...

Well, for the past 2 years, our wing telah menghadapi masalah "tinggalan sisa" didalam tandas.. I think you guys tahu apa yang I maksudkan... Oh my..tension melampau okay...yang membawa masalah adalah orang tua hookay.... pemalas ya ampun..sometimes everytime I nampak dia punya sisa, I always said.."dia ni makan ta** ke tadi?". Sampai begitu sekali aku benci dia...

So, BS and I decided to put a signage which betul-betul mengadap tempat membuat "bisnes" small and big kami. Kiranya, memang this signage mengadap muka kami. Nampak sangat kebodohan pengguna tandas ini kalau tak nak baca or try to avoid it.

My Mum pernah cakap, if you see "sisa" ni, memang lah ilmu makin kurang. Kiranya tak elok. And I pun perasan, padanlah I ni kekadang macam piang sikit for the past 2 years. Maybe sebab kena cursed by the old fat lady shit!!  

Oh ya, 3 weeks ago, I went Office B to meet up with NW. I need to teach her on something. And sebab aku menahan nak pergi tandas dari pagi sebab masih geli dengan toilet kat Company C, so I singgahlah masuk balik toilet idaman kat Office B ni... To my surprise, signage ini telah pun dikoyakkan dengan rakusnya...hoookay!!! Lupa nak ambil gambar pulak..

Toilet idaman sekarang diconquer oleh that old lady saja..oh ya, maybe kongsi sekali sekala dengan NW. Lantak korang lah berdua..cannot pointing finger dah kalau tetiba magic shit muncul...samada your shit or I forgot to disappear my shit before giteww...dah korang berdua je yang pakai, maka berdamailah demi ke'shit'an bersama.

This entry really full of shit saja... 

Hello, Everyone!!!

Mak aiii… lamanya tak menulis… draft ada lah few and termasuk cerita hari raya tahun lepas. Dalam kepala banyak betul idea..dahlah kat phone ada install blogger, kat ipad lagi..kat office pun memang jenis mengadap depan PC..but still lah tak sempat nak menulis…Respect betul to those yang ada masa nak update blog, everyday and siap sampai ada more than 1 entry..Hehehe..

Latest update..I’ve been transferred to Company C, which is subsidiary to Company B earlier. Still duduk department yang sama. How I wish they put me to other department which give me some opportunity to explore new thing. I know my capabilities and sebab inilah main reason I took different courses for my second and third degree/ certificate. But, itulah orang cakap, bila dah duduk Finance, macam kena curse je kena duduk situ sampai mereput. And lagi satu, adalah susah sikit to climb the ladder too.

Takpe, for the time being, I take it the opportunity given by the management of Company B. Well, bukan semua dapat serentak kan. I accepted their offer pun sebab I nak dapat secured permanent position in the company. Nasib baiklah seniority maintained, kalau tidak kena merangkak balik lah which sapa suka pun. Nanti tengoklah selepas itu macam mana..maybe kalau dah start chemistry kat department ni, I will stay but kalau dah banyak bulan or makan tahun jugak chemistry tu masih takde, I will talk to the big boss to ask for transfer. 

Apa lagi ye…

Oh ya..my 2017 spirit memula hari tu, telah dimusnahkan oleh my ex-boss kat Company B. Sakit jiwa betul which buatkan aku akan berdendam dengan dia sampai bila-bila. Yang ni will cerita later. Will continue clear my Draft post yang tak berapa sangat tu as soon as possible.

Till then, have a nice day.